Time for a 10 day fast

Let’s face it, 2018 was the rollercoaster of a life time experience with as many ups as there were downs and thank goodness it’s over and done. For me it happened in grand style on New Year’s Eve when the remnants of lifetimes of grief, anger, frustrations and victimhood, splattered across the pavement. Time for a reset and fast and some serious New Year’s resolution. From now on, no more escapism. Right….

Starting the fast wasn’t much of a problem because I couldn’t have swallowed anything anyway, even if I wanted to. I have been building up myself up to it for some time…spending loads of time with my mum who at 82 is a bit of a legend. She drinks, smokes and people think she’s in her sixties. Once someone even asked if we were sisters. I didn’t think it was funny! Anyways, staying straight with her is a bit of a challenge when it doesn’t take much to be swayed.  

I have always been an extremist. On the one hand a die-hard party girl, a lucky-go-happy type who loves being in company preferably a glass of wine in one hand and a lover in the other I can drag unto the dance floor.  Dancing, second to lovemaking, is definitely my all-time favourite pastime. Nothing beats emptying my mind and let the body move to music that lights my fire! Ah the unmistakable surge of heat… At least I’m not thinking then; not about my situation and what I must do, should do or can’t do and I’m not thinking about food….but since I can’t dance from morning till evening, I do end up thinking a whole lot about food and stuff that needs to be contained from once in a while. Like wiping a slate clean and to start off 2019 on the right foot, I decided to fast, 10 days, just to make sure I will have a better grip on myself. As I’m writing this today is my 10th day! Alleluia! I’m feeling totally amazing. Yesterday I walked for 3hrs through the forest going uphill, downhill, then went shopping. My mind is clear, my speech is brighter and I’m not so much looking for my words anymore. According to Mellen Thomas, who since his very powerful NDE, has the ability to tap into universal intelligence, memory is not only dependent on the brain. In fact, it seems we all have the ability to tap into universal memory or intelligence. It’s called inspiration.

So here is a diary of the last 10 days.

Day 1 to 3:
Menu: Hot lemon juice, herb tea. As much as I need to feel a little full. I’m feeling awful. Can’t stand on my legs for too long and my head is spinning. Thank God for Netflix.
Day 4:
Menu: Hot lemon juice, Kefir, fresh mint tea (I managed to drag myself to the shop to buy some mint). Netflix (Orange is the new Black. Those chicks are so cool. Wish I could talk like that but with these scrambled eggs masquerading as my brain, fat chance) Am I comparing myself again?
Friend came by for a walk in the forest. (I read somewhere you need to exercise). Dunno who came up with that idea. I nearly had a heart attack.

Day 5: 
Menu Morning: Hot lemon juice, kefir, fresh mint tea. Evening: organic vegetables bouillon. It’s soooo good! (Netflix: More Orange is the new Black)
I’m starting to feel human again, but still constipated despite the lemon juice and kefir. I did some online research.
Day 6,7
Menu Morning: Hot lemon juice, Kefir, fresh mint tea. Evening Vegetable bouillon  
Day 8
Menu Morning: Hot lemon juice, Kefir, fresh mint tea, unsweetened almond milk spiced with turmeric, pepper, cinnamon, ginger (simply divine). Evening Vegetable bouillon
I’m feeling better by the minute. My energy is high, my brain feels bright and my inspiration is once again alive and kicking. I created three new Sparks on my phone in one day.
Day 9, 10
Menu Morning: Hot lemon juice, Kefir, fresh mint tea, unsweetened almond milk spiced with turmeric, pepper, cinnamon, ginger (simply divine). Evening Vegetable bouillon but on last day time I’m eating the vegetables.
Holy shit, I have never felt so good. It just an amazing feeling to be clear and clean inside. No wind, no feeling bloated.

So, there you go. Just 10 days ago I felt like a hopeless basket case. I was hoping the fast would clear my mind and kick start my inspiration which had sort of died down lately.  I couldn’t have hoped for a greater result. It’s everything I had hoped for and more. Now, with a tenfold determination to give birth to my dreams, I’m planning on staying the course. 2019 is going to be a great year. I can feel it!!!

Reflection

Fasting, it seems, doesn’t just clear the body, it unclogs the soul.
When the noise drops and the cravings settle, inspiration slips through like sunlight through clean glass.
We spend so much time filling ourselves that we forget how radiant it feels to be empty.
Sometimes the best way to find direction is to do nothing at all… except breathe, laugh, and let clarity find us.

Written from the edge of wonder — Carmelliea